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i am the worst girlfriend,

on the face of planet.  (ignore my typos)

i have been so jealous and almost angry at my boyfriend for meeting thrice and going to  the electric factory to see them (on their farewell tour) last friday. 

i went to their may 22nd show at the chameleon club in lancaster on tuesday. i have been a fan for years and as usual, i watched riley’s hands as he played drums - since i am trying to learn drums and he’s my inspiration along with matt grenier. i nudged at greg as i said “dustin is a real man” and even said, “eddie’s high scream is bossy and teppei makes me feel like i have no talent.” 

i knew he got to meet them friday in philly, while i was basically a world away in corolla, nc for my family vacation. i was bitter, jealous and mad. i wanted to meet them. i wanted a  picture. and i didn’t get one at the chameleon club. my boyfriend didn’t get me flowers or a card for my graduation from college (the sunday prior) - for my BA in journalism. but as i cried to him tonight about my harbored jealousy, he pulled out the exact card i wanted signed by all the men of thrice.

i cried. i cried my eyes out. in fact, i am still crying. it is the single most thoughtful, and loving act i have seen from both my boy and a band. thrice was swamped by fans, and yet they (even eddie who wanted to see another band playing in town that night) took the time to congratulate me on my four years of journalism study (part of which included writing a review on their Major/Minor album - which was published!). 

my boy and thrice went above and beyond their abilities to make me happy. to make me feel  like i was a part of a night that i missed out on. i am so blessed and so happy. i do not know what i did to deserve a boy like i have. he made it happen, and thrice is so brilliantly wonderful to make me feel like a human - instead of just another name in a line of many,

thank you thrice, you made my year. and thank you greg, you made life. i love you all.

— 11 hours ago with 1 note
#personal  #graduation  #thrice 
i miss valalay so much,

she has no idea, but i need her.

— 15 hours ago